Feeling means fracturing, and Ninurrta has been fracturing over and over, barely holding himself together. His arrival to Oska had been on the heels of such terrible knowledge, shaking his foundations to their core. That he is no prince, that worse yet, he is a traitor to his father and to the Merkavan throne. He saved her. That girl, Caladbolg's agent who held him against his will, who he should have killed. He had been... so close, nearly able to go through with it. Such a weak-hearted boy.
There had been the smallest chance; he could have gone home. He'd failed himself, and his father. He'd failed others, even here. Turned them aside, lost whatever had been growing between them. However fragile it had been. ]
I just --
[ He falters, and seems prepared to wrench himself out of Jin's hands. But. It's just... it's been so long. ]
no subject
I don't want to --
[ Feel.
Feeling means fracturing, and Ninurrta has been fracturing over and over, barely holding himself together. His arrival to Oska had been on the heels of such terrible knowledge, shaking his foundations to their core. That he is no prince, that worse yet, he is a traitor to his father and to the Merkavan throne. He saved her. That girl, Caladbolg's agent who held him against his will, who he should have killed. He had been... so close, nearly able to go through with it. Such a weak-hearted boy.
There had been the smallest chance; he could have gone home. He'd failed himself, and his father. He'd failed others, even here. Turned them aside, lost whatever had been growing between them. However fragile it had been. ]
I just --
[ He falters, and seems prepared to wrench himself out of Jin's hands. But. It's just... it's been so long. ]
I just want to be liked. I want...
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