[jin had long ago made moves to master his anger, to channel his self-loathing, frustration, into something greater. and he'd emerged on the other side, better for it. he's certainly not perfect now, far from it, but it's no longer the issue. everything else is.
he trusts in himself well enough. he'd fought for that. but how often does he find someone else he trusts, if not yet completely, nearing that? and how could he not stand for that and take that blow to the self? jin is self aware enough to realize, when all is said and done, that it's the depth of his own emotion that drives him forward, or sends him screeching to a grinding halt. it always has been. it's why he'd stolen for quick cash, hoping to chase those dark rings of exhaustion out from his mother's eyes; it's why he saw his same desperation in the eyes of a thief in outworld, and, risking war itself, broke the bonds that trapped him in an unjust pillory.
it's why, in this moment, he comes to an agreement with kaz, though he doesn't know it. jin hates this weakness, hates any lack of agency or control over the movements of his life, hates to appear anything but measured and capable, head held high-- but a friend... a friend is not a weakness he would ever consider regretting. never.]
No. In town works just fine.
[if asher's his weakness, so be it. he'll protect him, same as he would with any other vulnerability.]
Pleasure doing business with you. [asshole.
jin cuts the line. he'll have to collect asher if kaz and company will be here that soon.]
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he trusts in himself well enough. he'd fought for that. but how often does he find someone else he trusts, if not yet completely, nearing that? and how could he not stand for that and take that blow to the self? jin is self aware enough to realize, when all is said and done, that it's the depth of his own emotion that drives him forward, or sends him screeching to a grinding halt. it always has been. it's why he'd stolen for quick cash, hoping to chase those dark rings of exhaustion out from his mother's eyes; it's why he saw his same desperation in the eyes of a thief in outworld, and, risking war itself, broke the bonds that trapped him in an unjust pillory.
it's why, in this moment, he comes to an agreement with kaz, though he doesn't know it. jin hates this weakness, hates any lack of agency or control over the movements of his life, hates to appear anything but measured and capable, head held high-- but a friend... a friend is not a weakness he would ever consider regretting. never.]
No. In town works just fine.
[if asher's his weakness, so be it. he'll protect him, same as he would with any other vulnerability.]
Pleasure doing business with you. [asshole.
jin cuts the line. he'll have to collect asher if kaz and company will be here that soon.]